Decision.. Decision

My knee was really hurt and swollen. Pernah ku mempost sal how my knee dislocated kan? so yeah now its getting worst. Bangkak berabis after my adek hit my knee very hard. I know he didn’t do it purposely, he was like just fooling around with me but damn its really hurt. I went to the hospital this morning just to check up on my knee. The doctor examine my knee and he can feel the swollen in my knee cap. He then asked the nurse to bring me to the x-ray room for an x-ray. Lapas x-ray my knee, paksa tunggu resultnya lagi. Then the nurse bawa the x-ray paper to the doctor and aku kena panggil masuk ke dalam.

Tau apa nah the doctor cakap? he said there is a possibility that i need to do the operation as soon as possible just to relocated my knee cap back to normal and ada fractured bones yang terkena my ligaments atu lah yang membuat my knee nil-nilu atu. I was stunned when I saw the x-ray of my knee and I asked him is there any other options beside from doing the operation. He said there is by putting a 2 metals (inda ku tau cana kan explain nie) both side from my knee to my ankle just to menstable kan my knee cap, i must then use the crotches jua however i still need to do the operation just to remove the fractured bones atu. I was really bangang when he explained pasal my knee ani, my mind was antah, somewhere, cos i was thinking of raya, my future and cana kan berlari ni if aku pakai crotches atu for 6mths.. inda ku tau apa cakap doctor atu lagi. I just nodded my head saying “awu” kira aku faham lah tu, padahal i was away away away melayang angan-angan. I asked him how soon should i must proceed the operation? he said the sooner the better which is by next week cos if i just keep it like that and bawa jalan-jalan, it’ll get worst. He wanted to make a booking for my operation but i said can i just think about this for a while, I can’t think right now. I thanked him and just walk away. Lupa jua ku tu kan ambil prescription untuk ubat ku, balik ku semula ke dalam bilik doctor ah and minta prescription ubat. The doctor was like geleng-geleng kepalanya (biasa la doctor india) macam ia kan cakap ayo ayo ini budak ah..

I don’t know what to do next whether i want to proceed with the operation and spend my raya in the hospital or at home using crotches for 6 mths doing nothing or just pakai basi atu which aku pernah sudah pakai dulu masa mula-mula aku dislocated my knee and still pakai crotches jua and do physiotheraphy 3 kali in 1 week. And if ku pakai basi atu jua, will my knee ani baik 100% and inda kan berbalik semula?? arghhh.. Decision.. decision.. what should I do..